Part 1: There are so many lessons and I ‘m still learning!

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I knew of heartbreak long before I met him. Before him, I dated a lot of losers. Guys that didn’t give a shit about me because let’s face it, I didn’t give a shit about myself. Those guys took advantage of me, a girl with self-esteem issues and they knew how to manipulate me. So, dating guys that ended up breaking my heart was a normal thing. But this one, the one who held my heart so tenderly once, had held it in its hands and decided “I…

I started a Podcast called Where You At w/ Mackenzie. Continue to read what my Podcast is about and what “Where You At” means to me.

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When I was 23 years old and still fresh out of college, I quit my job after four months. Yes, I quit my salary paying job in New York City. I couldn’t even force myself to fake it for at least 6 months to a full year. So, I bought a one way flight back home to CA because I think my depression/anxiety and the uncertainty of my future needed a break from the…

Because let’s be honest, I have no fucking idea what my “brand” is.

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When we were little, we all fought so hard to stick to the “status quo”, to be like everyone else, and to blend in. As adults, however, we fight so hard to be different and to stand out. I guess it’s kind of funny how it works that way. And I’m curious as to why that is.

I wish I had the answers for you in the next couple of paragraphs but I don’t. Anyway, I bring this up because last week, I had a mental breakdown…

This time, I’m not sure how to handle it.

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I understand by now that in order to achieve growth and reach your dreams of conquering the world, we must breakup with our comfort zones. I’ve ventured out of my comfort zone many, many times before. However, I still hate doing it. Being 25, I know I will keep running into this situation where I have to choose between comfort and vulnerability. And even though I have experience with challenging myself, it doesn’t take away how I’m feeling right now. I feel like a loser. …

The podcast, Death, Sex, and Money “Life in our 20s”, is offering some free advice for that twenty something year-old who is emotionally exhausted.

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Last week, I spiraled and wrote about the anxieties that being twenty something brings. This week, I haven’t spiraled…yet, but I wanted to share with you a piece of advice that I heard from one of my favorite Podcasts on the subject of being twenty something.

I’m huge fan of podcasts. I mostly listen to podcasts that provide some self guidance to the listener, you know, the ones that enrich your life with advice on self…

Experts argue that our twenties is actually the most defining decade of adulthood.

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I find myself driving on the freeway, my car’s top is down, the wind in my face and I have my favorite songs playing on the bluetooth speaker. But as I’m driving freely, I start to realize that I’m on the opposite lane and I have no idea how or why I got here. My carefree mood transitions into anxiety. I can see the other cars, going the right way and I want to get there, I want to be in the same direction that I’m supposed…

A short story of one of my many insecurities….

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I don’t remember the defining moment when I was growing up that made me feel like I was an ugly person. I’ve been trying to rack my brain for it because in therapy, my therapist sometimes does this exercise where she asks me to think of a time when I was younger that made me feel that feeling and then we talk through those patterns. Listen, I’m not in therapy because I don’t think I’m beautiful — trust me, my life would be so much less anxiety-prone but I’m in therapy…

Why do we all secretly care what others really think of us?

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I recently had a conversation with an acquaintance and more or less I agreed with her on what we were talking about. We were having a discussion about guys and them liking her. She said “It’s weird to me to know that guys find me attractive. That they would like like me or think I’m pretty…” It wasn’t word for word but the context is correct. The girl I was talking too was in no way unattractive. She was average, she was cute, sweet, adorable, she’s the girl…

25 years later and I still haven’t found my passion. How can I still live a fulfilling life?

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Elizabeth Gilbert, an American journalist and author is best known for her 2006 memoir, Eat, Pray, Love. She is also known, like all successful people, to preach about following your dreams. It’s like the second someone becomes successful, they become an advice giver, a “master” as you will and have the authority and the credentials to speak in front of a large group of people and tell them the secret to success. …

I still struggle everyday don’t get me wrong, but I learned something new from being in a pandemic.

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As the world forced us, forced me, to slow down I knew my fate with my depression and anxiety would have to come to face. By shutting down the city, it got rid of the distractions that kept me busy and my mind being able to avoid all the pain I felt everyday. I couldn’t go out drinking with my friends, dinners with him, my alone time at the gyms…for many, along with my self, our worlds had become unrecognizable and we…

Mackenzie Elizabeth

25 & resides in NYC. The Host of my own Podcast, Where You w/ Mackenzie. I write mostly about my life experiences on relationships, mental health, and my 20s

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